The journey to connection

In month 2 of my journey, I have been taking Svadhisthana twice daily and using Divinely Feminine regularly. This time has been less about ‘a-ha’ moments and more subtle in effect overall. But I have been dreaming, oh so much, particularly during the first two weeks, all about friends and connections. I can’t say that I remember specifics, but it almost felt like I was sorting through a filing cabinet of relationships and have been waking with either impressions of letting go or a sense of stronger connection. I also made time to have a magnesium bath. It is winter here and I prefer to be warm so no cold swimming for me. I felt completely physically relaxed after getting out and for the rest of the evening, so I plan to do that more often.     

Typically, well if you can call two months typical, it has been in the second half of the month that deeper feeling and understanding occurs. It was during this time that I reconnected with a friend I had been missing. We shared a glass of wine (or maybe 2) and really talked through our shared history spanning 25 years. I was so surprised by some of the loving and kind things she shared with me, and I realised that I had been missing her because I had been missing in the friendship. So, maybe a few ‘a-ha’ moments!! 

The other notable change in this month has been a softening towards a dog that has come to live with us. Thiele is my partner’s mother’s dog who came to us when she moved into care. Now, I love dogs but I had just lost the furry love of my life, Edmond my 14 year old standard poodle and it was just too soon to have another dog in my space…and while Thiele got my care and attention, he also needed my love, which I wasn’t ready to give. I didn’t want to let him in because I was still grieving the loss of Edmond and I felt too vulnerable with these feelings. The more I tried to ignore him, the more he craved my attention. Taking Svadhisthana made a difference. I felt myself giving more and connecting with him. It has been easier for us both and we have had more cuddles since.

I have another week to go with Svadhisthana & Divinely Feminine and next month move onto Manipura & Crisis Calm, which is timely as I am off on a holiday to France…and flying has never been an experience I have enjoyed.